Thanks for dropping by to read my new blog post. This post is quite a personal post and I wrote it because I really wanted to share the background of my song ‘Enter the Gate’ and why it is such a special song to me.
It is not always easy to share feelings through words, and I am usually much better at doing this in a song form (!) but I feel that as an artist and as a human being it is really important for me to be able to allow myself the gift of ‘letting go’. So thank you for taking the time to read, I’m honoured that you are here.
For me writing and making music is all about the art of expression; expression of my feelings, my thoughts, my hopes and my dreams. I have always found such comfort and release from being able to write from my heart, so I hope the story of ‘Enter the Gate’ gives you a little more insight into to my world as a human and as an artist.
Time is the greatest healer they say, and for the most part I believe that is true, however something that I find profoundly healing is the gift of music. Music to me helps me move from reality to another world where I can find myself on a whole new level, whether that ultimately be physically or spiritually.
Have you ever put a song on and it makes you want to dance? Have you ever listened to a song that just makes you want to cry? Have you ever heard a piece of music that just allows you to drift, drift into your own inner consciousness and be one with yourself and the whole world?
Yes I hear you cry! I happens to me all the time too! Well that is what I hope happens when you listen to my song ‘Enter The Gate’.
I really hope that my song touches your soul and that it may become part of your life as it part of mine.
So here goes…
It has been a really difficult year for me, unbeknownst to many I lost my beloved Father this year after he had a 13 year-long battle with prostate cancer. My Father or ‘Pops’ as I affectionally called him was a very special man. We were so similar in so many ways and there are endless amounts of things that I could tell you about him, but hey, just take my word for it, if you met him, you would have loved him!
He meant the absolute world to me and there will never be enough space on the page to tell you all about him, but one thing was for sure, he really loved my album and he was so proud of the music I was creating, and that’s the reason why I wanted to release ‘Enter the Gate’, as my third single from my debut album ‘Lost in Love’ as a loving dedication to him.
But there is, as there is with a lot of my songs, more than meets the eye within the lyrics and meanings that they convey.
My song ‘Enter the Gate’ is no different and contains the metaphorical message of the journey of both self-discovery and transition from one state to another.
When I wrote ‘Enter the Gate’ the title of the song just seemed to sum up everything that I was trying to explain in one phrase, but it wasn’t until later that I realised this phrase had been used before.
I am really interested in self-discovery and learning about our feelings and what makes us so human and so over the years I have read a lot of books by different authors about the self, our divine self and also about self-improvement or self-help and transformation into our best self.
It was actually when I was reading a book called ‘Fear No Evil’ by Eva Pierrakos and Donovan Thesenga that I came across the phrase ‘Enter the Gate’. In the book they talk about entering the ‘gates’ of our emotions. For instance, it talks about fear being an illusion and when we go through the gate that we are fearful of (by feeling our way through) we go on to discovering our true self.
For example (and I quote) “…Through the gateway of feeling your weakness, lies your strength; through the gateway of feeling your pain lies your pleasure and joy; through gateway of feeling your fear lies your security and safety;…”
All the time while my Father was ill and was fighting his long battle with cancer I was so fearful and dreaded the time when he would not be able to fight anymore, and not knowing when that would be was awful.
When my father did leave this physical world even though I was devastated and broken-hearted I still felt relief for him, for he was no longer in pain; and however much I miss him dearly, every single day I miss him, one thing that I am so grateful for is that he is no longer in pain.
So if there is a heaven, I can imagine angels asking him to “Enter the gate with me…”.
Sometimes I feel like the little voice in my head who is always telling me ‘everything will be okay’, ‘you got this’, and ‘you can do this’ is the part of me which inspires me to never give up, to never lose hope and to always carry on and live life to the full as much as I possibly can even when I smile through the pain.
And sometimes when I get to the point where I ‘enter the gate’ of non-resistance, I feel like everything will be and is okay.
And so my song ‘Enter the Gate’ seemed to be more important to me than ever as I feel like it is a song that I can dedicate to him and dedicate to anyone who is going through any kind of transition personally, on a physical, emotional or spiritual level.
I hope this blog has given you some insight into why this is such a precious song to me.
As always sending you so much love from the bottom of my heart,
In Love & Light,